It is an endless cycle of fire and rebirth untill the day we are finally reborn into eternal life. We will forever be with the Father who gave us life and loved us enough to give His Son for us. He is forever with His children and though He brings us through fire it will never be too hot for us. All glory to His name!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Ignorance can be such bliss...but Your arms hold me together

I don’t even know how to go about writing this blog.  But I shall try to put words to my thoughts. 
This past half a week has not been very pleasant, to put it very plainly...it has been the most painful I have ever had to live through.  Thursday my family went up to Sudbury for another meeting with moms cancer doctors(it was also Jessies birthday).  The day was ok to begin with, mom was feeling better than the past few days and she was ok on the trip.  After a few hours at Chapters and getting Starbucks(amazing!) we went to the mall, got some bubble tea and went to pick up dad and mom. 
Ignorance can be such bliss even when you know something painful is coming. 
The doctors have said there is nothing else they can do and are stopping chemo.  Mom has not been herself lately and gets confused easily.  We don’t know how much longer we have her with us..but we know it is not for much longer.  It is hard to watch this woman, who has cared for me my whole life..is now slowly slipping away into LIFE.  I know God can take it all away in an instant but if, in His plan, chooses not to I will love Him and know all of this is for His glory and our good.  Mom will be in a much better place away from all of this.  She is the lucky one.  Death is just another victory for the Christian...whether in life or death we have won.  And mom has most defiantly won!  The devil has not got this one...God has it all!
I cant think of anything else to write but I will leave you all with a lyrics to a song and a prayer request.
First the prayer request.  We are planning to go to Windsor to spend Christmas with family.  Mom asks for prayer so that she will have mental clarity and be able to fully enjoy Christmas.  Also for safe travels and that things with go very smooth.
EVERYTHING FALLS
Fee

You said
you'd never leave or forsake me
when you said,
this life is gonna shake me
and you said
this world is gonna bring trouble on my soul
this I know

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on

when I see
darkness all around me
when I see
that tragedy has found me
I still believe
your faithful arms will never let me go
and still I know

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on


Bridge:
Sorrow will last for the night
but hope is rising with the sun
(it’s rising with the sun)
and there will be storms in this life
but I know you have overcome
You have overcome

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on

Thank you all for your prayers and love.  We feel Gods arms of love around us through all of this pain.
Rebekah

7 comments:

  1. My heart aches for you, Becka. We recently walked through this with some close friends.
    No words, just love...

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  2. My heart is shattered into a thousand pieces... You all are in my prayers Rebekah... Your faith is amazing and an absolute gift to me... love you all so much.. Thank you for writing this very difficult but amazing post on your blog...

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  3. Your Mom is soo strong and your family is truly a testimony to God's strength and answer to so many prayers. You are a beautiful woman of faith as well. Your family is in my prayers <3
    -Kari A.

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  4. You are in our prayers always. Keep depending on God - He will give you what you need to get through this!

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  5. Bekah.
    You're a blessing and an encouragement to me.
    I love your mom and she has taught me so much, please please,send her love. Hug her for me, and hug yourself. I miss you Bekah, and I am here for you. I'll be praying as well.
    God's used your mom and your family in a powerful way.

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  6. Dear Rebekah
    I know your mom from when she used to visit Mary in Calif (before and after she and your dad were married). What a beautiful person, inside and out she is. Praying for you and your entire family during this difficult time and praying that God remains your stronghold. God bless you.

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  7. Rebekah, God has given you the grace to make it this far and He will carry you the rest of the way whatever that involves. You and your family have changed our church. God has used you so powerfully. I am privileged to have been part of your journey.

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